Guess who's staying another year.........

Well the first month of this year was prob one of the worst months of my life. Tragic, depressing, heart-wrenching all those words come to mind when I think of it. I mean every damn day was pure shit. I saw Ethan again and I said to myself, ok Jesus, now im sure you hate me. It's a new year (Chinese new year) and things are looking up. I thank my higher power for guiding me and placing people in my life especially my girl Lara. But I always believe life goes on. And I'm a living testament.

So guess who's doing another year in china? Shit I'm just as surprised as you are. I was getting ready to come home In February but now I signed another contract with my school. Plus, my business is starting to grow so I would be a fool to leave and go back to America with no job. The idea of working a real job scares me. Like candy man scary (sidenote you couldn't pay me to say his name 3x in the mirror)

I will return to America for the month of may and June because my best friend is getting married and I'm giving her the best bridal shower and bachelette party ever. Then I'll return to china to finish out my contract. I'm prob going to live here for a while but anything permanent scares me as well so I'm here until further notice. So when people ask me where's my home after 3 years I guess it's okay to say china is my home. That's so crazy to me, being the fact that I'm a black girl from Chicago. Sometimes I just walk here and cry and thank God I'm here. I could still be back in America hating my life and dating a man who cheated on me and got someone pregnant. So when you have faith anything is possible. But let me stop preaching cause I hate people who do that. ( I'll discuss my current religion in another post)

Currently I don't want to get married or even thinking about settling down. Me and chocolate drop are done. And I have done a 180. I'm sure I will get married but at the moment I'm good. According to my reading my aunt gave me(creole powers) this is the year for love. (vomits) but whatever. I just wanna travel and make money. I do have the finest Chinese man in china claiming me tho. He's fine and rich. But whatever. Its early. I may wake up tomorrow and be over it. We haven't had sex yet but it's the beginning and everything is wonderful in the beginning. Damn, I'm bitter.


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Location:Jinan Shandong

Eat Pray Party!!!!!

My best friend package said my life is like eat pray party (I have no love life) and she's exactly right. The beginning of 2013 I said I was going to settle down but I ended the year being single. *shrugs* I tried.
I would say things are pretty simple with me. I'm honest. I have an open door policy and whatever you want to know just ask. The issue that I have is that most men don't live by that. There is no little lie in my book. A lie is a lie. Maybe because I have a little baggage from my past I have no tolerance for someone lying to me. So if you tell me you're on a flight to come see me from atlanta to Chicago but your flight number says your leaving from Utah I'm going to be upset. Just say I had business to do in Utah. When it comes to business i don't ask any questions. I'm also not the jealous girl. Just keep it real. Once you lie, I can never be serious with you. I might play with you but never again can I take you serious.
Then being a girlfriend to a foreign guy is work. You plan all these things for the guy for Christmas and his holiday stay with you , go out your way for presents for him and then the guy "can't get a flight to come see you, and then tells you hell be traveling though out his stay with you. Nor does he tell you before hand. Niggaz to be so quick to say you" you live within me" and then do a 180 in a heartbeat.
I'm over the drunken calls and messages from people. I'm over the " I miss you" I'm on my shut the fuck up" in my Chief keef voice. Hey when my daddy misses me he flies me to where he is. So if you can't prove your words keep them. I'm back to my yellow fever. It's easier. I don't have to do anything but show up and look cute. They're happy with the good morning texts and small things. And they don't lie. Rather they have business, girlfriend, wife, child at least they tell you. This year I'm not focused on marriage or babies. I'm only focusing on money. But I will let a nice guy show me a good time.
Shit I'm showing myself a great time!











New Year's Eve... This year I'm wearing more color..




Fun times with Lara.








My nigga mike




Yep I call him the chinese biggie smalls. I have to work out double the next day hanging with him but he's FUN!! He says all I have to do is give him 3 kids and marry him. That may be the move for 2015

My brothers birthday

Location:Eat pray party